Day 4: Missing you

"you never know how strong you can be until being strong is your only choice."


So today marks Day 4 of Michael being gone... it was hard the first day and it surprisingly hasn't been too hard until today... until this moment.  I am missing my babe a lot today.  It's definitely been a long time since we've been apart.  It's been at least 7 years since he's deployed... and he hasn't TDY very much while we were in the Azores. 


One year...??  Really??  Unfortunately, this was a choice he made... and i have no choice but to be strong.  It was choice to get to a place that he would be happy to finish out his career and for him to be happy... after all he is the one in the military and he is the one working.  It's a sacrifice we have to face, the kids and i, just have to be strong... and it's up to me to lead them.


I'm not sure when to call him... at least he's only 4 hours ahead so it's like him being in the East Coast... but his schedule is still unclear so i don't want to wake him or keep him up if he's got to work days or nights.  I'll just wait for him to call me or call sometime tomorrow... 


He will definitely miss a lot this year and we will miss him everytime... at least i like to take pictures so he can't miss a day... thinking about doing a Sunday diary and picture.  Every Sunday, as long as i can remember, i'll post a pic and talk about the day/week in FB!!  Starting tomorrow... we'll see... how this goes, lol... see i'm not so good at blogging already, lol.